"Integrity"
Thank you for bringing me down,
so I could learn to pick myself up.
"The Key"
Theres a hole in my heart
Everytime it just tears me apart
I feel it grow, but it keeps the same shape
And it reminds me to sit tight and always wait
For your love will fill the hole, that empty void
Silence my cries, let go not one noise.
That hole has a shape believe it or not
Only you know how to fill it, I pray you never forgot.
"Iris"
As you chase the shadows of past, present, and future,
you pace the floors of a life once lost a year.
Tragedies and heartache litter the soul.
A love fluttered heart you feel you'll never know.
The unwanted regret, hate, and lament,
the curses you feel you will never forget.
But with a curse comes a blessing,
and for that you owe nothing.
Just the beautiful girl completely forgetting.
Paint the picture of how things become clear,
and love the person staring back in the mirror.
"Behind Blank Eyes"
I never knew life could be so unpredictable.
Float through the day, no sense of control.
Is there any sign of my personality fading,
or am I even a soul worth waiting?
Can you see me now?
I close my eyes, wish I were somewhere else.
the farther I get, I seem to forget myself.
Fade the lines of an eccentricity.
and change my ways, never know me.
Do you know me now?
Im just a ghost, a nobody,
fitting in with everybody.
I loose the person I was meant to be.
Can someone set me free?
Last minute of my empathy.
I no longer wish to dream.
Close my eyes, wish I were someone else.
I dont have sympathy, something Ive never felt.
Because Im fake, Im a nobody,
fitting in with everybody.
Can someone set me free?
"A. love"
Past is the past, eyes on the future
and look forward to every day, every year
that I spend with you, every second.
The butterflies in my stomach I hope will never end.
Bless my dreams baby, please always be with me
and Ill protect you from every bad moment we see.
Ill never hurt you I promise, Ill always respect you
and be the best love of your life you ever knew.
"A Leap of Faith"
Fall into forever with every nail scraping
again and again, you’ll find yourself waiting.
The fear of forever grips you by your lungs
with the thought of belonging to just one.
You breathe hard, your heart beats a frenzy.
Nervous with every second, palms become sweaty
Take one last step, don’t hesitate
Only you can decide your own fate.
Take that jump, take the chance
Don’t worry…you won’t fall too fast
Her heart will catch you in the nick of time
And you’ll breathe off those words “he’s mine.”
"LIVE"
I dont know when life will end
I dont know how life began
I cant change my bad decisions
Or live on with deep incisions
I can't rewind time
I can't always say that Im fine
I dont know what happens next
But Ill always strive for the best
I can't change loves target
Or even come close to fight it
Ill never be able to fix whats in my head
So ill just always live with it instead
Tormenting thoughts will come and go
But so does love, why, Ill never know
Friends will be there, friends will disappear
Change is always my worst fear
But maybe if I let it go,
Life will be easier
My pain will disappear
Gone away, good bye,
And never look back to despise.
But until then, I live
And forget the past, every wrong I ever did
I live my life, and live it strong
Forget my faults, never again....
WRONGED.
"Look To The Skies, Then Her Eyes"
She smiles like a sunrise
like a fresh morning breeze.
Just as beautiful as her eyes,
that brightness just for me.
That smile’s like a painting
flawless to the touch.
That beauty, there’s just something,
That makes my heart beat too much.
That smile’s like early spring
Birds sing, flowers blossom.
Taken; I’ll wear her name as a ring
because she’s everything I’ve ever wanted.
She smiles like a sunset.
Golden, her future with me.
So bless the day we met.
Her smile, everyday, the last thing I see.
"Mirrors"
These fingers claw,
scratch through the walls, in my mind.
Chasms deep with rage,
Un-shallow as I thought.
The darkness falls, unto my eyes.
glossed with hate, and disappointment.
Is this crazy?
Look into child’s face, and see the fate.
Piercing eyes burn the image in my head.
So is this suffering?
The words on the wall, what do they mean?
“The answers are hidden.” they tell me.
Whispers tear through my ears.
The wind of silence deafens the last image;
I stare at myself, laughing at my own pyre.
"Ink The Plague"
Shadows creep from the undying poet
Anger filled letters of his blood soaked ink.
He weeps, he tears, confiding his fears
Lament burns golden in his misanthrope.
His chest breathes hard, hearts fiends like thirst,
for every last word, he hangs on like the first.
A poet, one word, to describe this dear man.
An outcast, no one quite understands,
To gain his sanity, he writes every last thought.
disillusions, fake through what he is not.
Burned into his paper, shadows creep when near,
the skeletons in his closet, all disappear.
"Tides."
We live the tides of our lives
Controlling our own destinies.
Reborn, into this ocean full of promises.
We strive for perseverance,
but at times come up short.
Can we really choose our own path?
Or will we perish in our dreams.
Pray. Pray for the existence. The hope.
Pray for death, the veil of the misfortunate;
You will not win.
The loses in existence will not be forgotten
We atone for the perceptions.
Procreate the last judgment.
We drown in love, hope, death and despair.
Treading emotions, running deep in our souls.
My mind redeemed;
Drowning to be,
a heart thats free.
"Sleepwalker"
Walk on clouds, like the heavens above
and all we have to float is our love.
We walk in our sleep, dream of the sky
and hope we never wake up, never say goodbye
Never leave my side, my heart, my mind,
hand in hand we’ll be till the end of time.
Let’s never wakeup, live in our dreams.
Together forever, whatever the means.
Breathe deep, just close our eyes,
and let’s wakeup from our lives.
"Words Like Bullets"
You rub the salt into my wound.
To what am I guilty? To love and to swoon?
You lie, you cheat, you complete my defeat.
Left me down on my knees.
I beg you to show, I ask you to prove,
Deny what my thoughts consume.
Your words repeat, no actions change.
I hate what this feeling has became.
Dont you know that it stings like glass?
Like knives in my back, just do it fast.
Those words are deadly, as you choke them out.
Did you even think you’ld bring to life my doubt?
But still I try, even as the hearse drives by.
Bad habits die hard, no sense why.
Even as you hold that gun to my head,
Im glad we met,
only you putting me to my deathbed.
And what could I do?
Im without direction.
My life is broken.
All I can do is…
Reach. For. The. Skies.
Life will move on.
"The Last Goodbye"
I look down the road one last time,
Will you take the walk with me?
One last look, my travel becomes blurry
My fears, my worries, leaving empty handed.
Was the struggle really what I wanted?
We missed the moment, its sad to say
we found no other way.
But I want you to know...
regret is a word that will not be the last
lessons to be learned confide in the past.
Memories clear as the skies above,
Hate is void, my heart is love.
The moments shared, the smiles exchanged,
Your image never taken in vain.
I look down the road one last time.
Will you take the walk with me?
Walk away from what was not meant to be.
Ill say goodbye, but its not the truth.
Close my eyes to see the ghost of you.
"Felicity"
Girl, you know I don’t need a reason
to see that smile, its always in season.
"Belleza"
…Tripping over my words, what to say next?
Fumbling around, feel through the mess.
My heart goes faster, my lungs squeeze tighter.
Heavy breathing, my heart stops beating,
And the world disappears.
"One Last Look"
We walk around in our ignorance.
Heads occupied, we cant live with this.
We share the story, lets read it aloud
so your name wont ever escape my mouth.
We glance through the pages, rip each one out.
Might as well, the feelings are mutual now.
My pursuit of this task will let me be,
so your face will never again enter my dreams.
I wont fall in this memory, I promise you this.
No more than the burn of your kiss.
We take one last look at this old book
and we burn those pages, close the chapter.
We don’t always live happily ever after.
"Would You Be There"
I fall fast, down the abyss within,
the tattered lies I hear again and again.
Falling fast, your words begin,
I never believed, you will never win.
I kicked myself one time too many,
I’ll run from this, never think; what would be?
Wait, maybe now there’s hope.
Someone in my eye, will they help me cope?
Her smile tells me yes, her voice tells me sure.
All my doubts, my questions, all deferred
I tell her my secrets, my inner thoughts,
confide in her, my life’s kinks and knots.
All of my faults and fucked up choices.
Could she judge, not even the wisest?
If I fall, before my time,
will she be there, to make sure Im fine?
If Im falling to my death,
Will she be there to catch me, and with our last breath,
tell me she’s there, she will always care,
and the day will never end.
"Rose Pedals"
Bite the tongue of the everlasting verse,
Believe the thought of loves last kiss.
Stop at nothing to fill every void,
No pain, no gain; No fight nor pain.
Watch the stars, the wishes align.
Eyes burn crimson, for the last time.
Green is the color, for which envy is born,
Let them sob, for what they’ll never have.
I touch the lips, that burn desire,
the fire we feel, all will admire.
don’t fret my dear, for any regret,
No hurdle too big, time lets us forget.
I give you a rose, for my heart does not bloom.
My love for you, my body consumed.
"Delirium"
As I Lay myself to sleep
My body rests, my soul to keep
One last word before I go…
You will never see, what my mind holds.
One last breath, my lungs will take.
Please dont weep, at my wake.
Ive left you a gift upon your chest.
A list of my thoughts, my manifest.
Feel my sorrow, sing the glee,
Of crows and ashes upon my feet.
Feel the sadness upon my thoughts,
It took every bit of strength I got.
One last breath, my lungs will take.
Please dont weep, at my wake.
"Importance"
Make. Every. Word. Count.
Every little thing.
Tell her she’s beautiful,
she’s smart, she’s funny.
Tell her she means the world to you,
she’s your everything.
Cherish every moment.
Every last second.
She will always love the gift.
"Indebted."
I am blessed my love, for what you bring.
I am blessed my love, for what you take.
I am grateful my love, for every moment we spend,
every breath we take; together.
"The Maple Tree."
I think as I sit, under the maple tree.
I return here every fall afternoon,
about half past ‘3.
I scratch in my paper, happiness, love, anger, empathy.
I write as I sit, under the maple tree.
I return here every winter morning.
Nothing but the cold breeze and me,
I sleep as I lean, on that maple tree.
I think as I sit, under the maple tree.
I return here every summer’s eve.
Not one night missed, no sleep forgotten,
that I spent a minute with that maple tree.
"Lust Kills"
Listen to me, we don’t need ‘em, girl
My words aren’t just a peck on the cheek
Drugs can kill, but your curves can murder
Chastity drives you further and further
Please don’t tease me
You know it drives a man crazy,
like a dog chasin its own tail
Your smile’s addictive, like the whiskey you choke down
Drunk with love and hornyness,
fallin all over, like a hot mess
My eyes aint deceiving, I know what Im seein,
But I like it anyway!
Listen to me, we look better famished girl
Figure aint everything
I wouldn’t care, even if you were anorexic
That’s just a bag of bones, just another complexion
My thoughts run rabid with filthiness,
littered with metaphors, and similies.
How do I explain the lucidness,
that you cause my brain everyday?
Sweet, Sweet calamity,
Girl, you drive me fuckin crazy!
"Read This Letter, Choose Your Words"
Staring at the words on the paper,
mocking speech, and lamenting grammar.
This is what I get for trying.
Try to read the whole damn paper,
contradicting the run-on sentences.
This is what I get for trying.
It couldn’t be, but 10 minutes past 11,
but already you’ve killed all the moments.
Is this happening for real?
You didn’t have the guts in person,
yet you got the ego to write it on paper.
So you’re too good for human interaction?
Now you’re nothing more than a taste,
Bitter, and cold, as I spit you out.
And now that this wound has healed,
You’re not even a memory.
"Addiction"
How far can you go
when your runnin on empty?
Time just passes me by,
slippin through my fingers, every grain.
Gotta slow this down, I missed my stop.
bought a one way ticket straight to hell.
My emotions take the best of me,
kickin my ass up and down.
Gotta fight this addiction,
gonna turn to self infliction.
But at least they’ll fit me
with a nice jacket anyway.
"Threnody In Her Eyes"
I wish that night had never ended
Missing that song, of praise and beauty
Oh, that night of hopes and dreams
Stitched with passion built to nothing
We danced upon that grave
The tomb of hate and lament
Gone to the darkness
The Eve of the Undying
I was hit by the arrow
I wish that night had never ended
Never come to an end
My love so endearing
It tears me away
I miss her eyes
burning gems of desire
I miss her scent
which put me to rest
I miss her voice
sweet melodies of angels
which took my soul.
I wish that night had never ended
The Eve of my collapse
I gave my heart to my love that night
The beauty that never leaves my sight.
"Atone The Veil"
One Love: Divinity
You claim your prayers unanswered,
The lord discounts your being,
Suspended by our own mistrust
Call out the lies for your faith.
For the grave cannot sing your praise,
Death cannot hope for your faithfulness.
Dont drown in your own filth
Repent the sins
Condemned is the one that speaks down on thy lord
Sins of men that do not repent
I will not stand for this lament
Surely God is my salvation;
I will trust and not be afraid.
The Lord is my strength and my song;
Bow to your knees and pray with me
Hope for the diseased, beaten and the weak
Stand strong for what you believe,
Those who dont fear, will always be free
TAKE HEART BY FIATH
Rejoice with those that do rejoice,
and weep with those that weep
for eternity.